I've not published anything for some time. I have written a Lot, huge amounts but not pressed the publish button. This month has been crazy, So very much moving through my energetic systems to the point of overwhelm.
I feel a lot, I sometimes feel too much, I pick up a lot of what's all around, in people, or situations through the media around the world. In March it was International Women's Day, I wrote a piece about Why are we still talking about all this, why do women Still suffer, why is there violence & atrocities carried out so often against women around the world? I felt bruised & battered for all those I felt their pain.
Then in April it has been an event called Red My Lips, again highlighting the terrible atrocities women Still face in this world. I have Felt all of this Every day this month.
Then there was the anniversary of the missing girls in Africa. I have Never forgotten them, I light a candle in sacred places for them whenever I can & I think of them & their families often. My heart is so sore with this particular case, it feels like all the horrible situations playing out I this piece to remind me. I send Such love to these souls & Also to all the perpetrators, beyond their behaviour I see the beauty of who their soul really is & I wish their hearts would break open even a little to make them see what they do & make different choices.
As all this & more moves through I have been working with sacred dance practice which helps me not hold & store the intense pain I feel in my body, it's too much to hold so I witness & release as much & as often as I can. I have also been doing More meditation than usual to stay grounded in the present & not drift of into the past or future where all suffering lies.
So I needed to escape the world & run away. I needed nature to nurture me & take care of me.
I have been Incredible blessed to have had the opportunity to visit the Azores Islands, where I am writing this from. This trip was to celebrate my birthday & I have been dreaming since I was a little girl of seeing a Blue Whale. Yes I have been Very blessed to have seen Many species of Dolphin & Whale but I dreamed of a mere glimpse of the biggest creature on earth.
I went out on the first trip & was Blown away to see 4 Fin Whales & Dolphins & turtle.
Then we moved to Pico Island. This Eco resort is Eden on Earth to me. I have had a yoga/ dance studio to myself, I have had a Tai Chi garden, a Whale watching tower & a Sea Lounge for my dance/ yoga practice. I have slept & ate & meditated. I have danced naked with no music, just the ocean & felt Complete oneness. I have gazed at the stars while the sea birds cried.
I went out on a tiny inflatable rib & sat right at the very front. It was a Complete Initation by Ocean! Such Massive Pain as the boat slammed into the waves like concrete for 16 miles out to sea. I felt scared & vulnerable & there was Nothing I could do but surrender & trust. I felt so tiny out in the Wild ocean.
Then I saw the blow. The blow of a Blue Whale is 12 meters! You only get a glimpse of a small segment of the whale as most of it was under the water & they don't show their tails when they dive. I was blessed enough to see 1 but there were a couple , plus a Fin Whale , Plus a turtle in the 1 area. Such intense pleasure at this incredible sight. I didn't take many pictures as I was holding on tight.
It was Worth ALL the huge pain for 4 hours & I wouldn't have missed a Second for all the world!
Tomorrow we travel back to the main island again & I don't want to leave my Perfect place. I have Never been somewhere that has allowed me to stop & heal so deeply. Today as I had a massage outside I felt I had become a Jellyfish, I had dropped Everything & found a place of Such deep relaxation, peace & freedom. I am Beyond Grateful to this Incredible volcano in the middle of the Atlantic Ocean.
Such Massive LOVE to the Azores, the Atlantic, All the flora & fauna, the love moving to spread over the entire world.