I keep Thinking I know what the next step is, or I have a flavour or I think I am in any form of control – ha ha ha. Absolutely No way Toots!!!! (My Guides call me “Toots” a LOT just to make me smile!) This is the pathless route - utter uncertainty and twists and turns constantly! Be constantly flexible to the flowing, changing, evolving, shape-shifting nature of life and don’t resist anything – the minute you start resisting what is – tension zooms in!
Yes I am here in Service - for Gaia and the Divine Feminine and I have a Massive Desire to DO “Stuff" to help Absolutely Everyone, Everything Everywhere, Ceaselessly ALL the time but Actually that Completely Overwhelms me and drains the Hell out of me as I often feel aspects of the pain body of the World. I want to give and give and give and GIVE and give some more But – Toots how about just actually “Being” for a bit!
Right now its about DOING a WHOLE lot Less – less and less and less. Less is SO much MORE. Getting Really Silent and Still and really trusting when it’s right to saying NO to opportunities and people – It’s taken me a Long time to really nail down the idea of Boundaries. So, from that space I can choose what I Really want to say Yes to, such as the couple of things that really do call me this weekend.
Laughter is a big part of my dance right now and It made me giggle today when I considered a Few of the things that haven’t happened or been done yet as if that’s something “bad” – Who cares huh!!!! I don’t need to achieved ANYTHING in this life, it is NOT a Competition, take Nothing Personally or Seriously!!!! Who knows 1 or 2 of these or all of them and MORE may emerge in divine timing or maybe none of them will evolve and there will be Completely different adventures. I have No attachment – Everything is OK, there is Never any push – water never pushes – it flows and adapts. I don’t Even need to pick 1 of these things and start there. I need do Nothing right now – there is Such power in Nothing.
- I thought I’d be running a whole Range of “Shake your Shakti” movement based classes all over the place.
- I thought I’d be working towards formal movement/ dance teacher training
- I thought I’d be running Cacao ceremonies with a range of fantastic topics
- I thought I’d be running a range of workshops and classes on all sorts
- I thought I’d have done the Sound Practitioner course and offering sound particularly to older people in care homes
- I thought I would have started training to teach meditation to kids
- I thought I’d be at least a Bit more ‘better’ at yoga by now!
- I thought I’d be dedicated to Tai Chi practice and not miss class
- I thought I’d be trained up as a Laughter Yogini and running a bunch of laughter clubs
- I thought I’d be offering more treatments with the holistic therapies I have
- I thought I’d be training in some more bodywork techniques to add to the mix
- I thought I’d have found a new pottery place and get messy and creative with clay again
- I thought I’d have progressed a bit more with the Buddha tapestry cushion I’m making
- I thought I’d have sorted out a lot of the stuff that needs done in the flat
- I thought I’d have caught up with a bunch of people I’ve been Meaning to for a while
- I thought I would have planned/ organised and gone on a trip with one of my dear friends
- I thought I’d have continued the progress I made last year with my health and weight and lost a whole bunch more and done workshops on all that
- I thought I’d be a lot more focused and organised with my finances
- I thought I’d have a sleek website with all sorts of fantastic products
- I thought I’d be bringing More Mindfulness and Wellness work into the Corporate arena.
- I thought I’d be training as some kind of play practitioner and set up lots of Fun play opportunities
- I thought I’d be doing a Lot more with photography and making a range of products
- I thought I’d be trained up in some kind of Art Therapy especially for Mental Health clients and doing a lot with all that side
- I thought I’d be volunteering with a Whole range of charities I’m really interested in for a range of tasks such as taking people out on health walks as a Walk Leader
- I thought I would be training up to be a Move More teacher to work with a cancer charity
- I thought I’d have been down to London to see Sri Mata Amritanandamayi Devi (Amma) when she was here
- I thought I would be going to see Emaho for the full 4 days this weekend ........
WHO CARES – It Really Doesn’t mean a Thing – Absolutely NONE of it. Drop Every Single Thing. It REALLY Is completely OK to Drop ALL the Doing!!!!
Just REST. Completely Totally and Utterly. Just STOP with ALL of it and just BE. The Rest will unfurl and take care of itself in it’s Own sweet way!
I smiled at a stranger today and they opened and smiled back – THAT'S the Power and Beauty in this life – Simple acts of kindness, sheer Simplicity!
ALL my guidance keeps coming back over and over to Utterly Drop the DOING! Yeah I ADORE people, animals, Gaia, the Universe… but at the moment, let me be Still and Quiet and just leave me there for a bit.