Why did I travel about 500 miles from Edinburgh to East Sussex carrying a stone from the earth? (It wasn’t Just to sing the Proclaimers song ‘I’m gonna be”!)
It was All about Unity. Four years ago my dear Brother from Colombia, Anthar Kharana and other sweet friends planted a sacred Female Labyrinth in the hills of the Scottish Borders. I have been there through this journey that has been exceptionally powerful and beautiful (Even with the wind and the rain and the midges…) At the beginning, I didn’t even understand the true teaching of a labyrinth or why I was actually there that first night. And then I walked Her! Her medicine immediately went into my heart, my womb and my soul as a Direct Transmission. It was Never an education of reading from a book or attending a workshop… it was pure Experience. That’s how I learn, I am interested in what it means to me, what the learning is for me. The minute I entered that first night, I came home. Each step took me closer to the center of the womb. I was Surprised at the amount of information that came to me from the Grandmother Stones, they were chatting with me all the way. They Knew I could hear them and I did! That First night I Felt the Labyrinth in Colombia and KNEW I’d be there at some point. Four years later, I walked the Female Labyrinth and the Sacred Masculine Spiral in Colombia and I Knew why it had called me and why I was there. This Summer Solstice, it was time to revisit and revise the prayers. We will continue to tend and take care of this site in Scotland and visit it and offer ceremony and now the journey takes the next step. The next labyrinth asked to be born, one in England. It is time to Unite the two beautiful lands. It has been two years since the Scottish vote on Independence and time to heal, time to unite, time to come together in our lands and for that to spread. I was brought up by my father and my grandfather to Hate the English. There was many wounds in my ancestor lineage of things that had happened such as the Highland Clearances. Time for all of it to be cleansed and healed. (I remember my grandfather was not best pleased when I married a Geordie from near Morpeth!) So now, I’ve seen all that. I’ve sat with it and I’ve made peace. I hate No one, full stop. I have Only LOVE. Time for me to make my sacred pilgrimage south and tell my Brothers and Sisters down there that we are one family and that I Love them. This Pilgrimage was not straightforward. I’d been experiencing Many physical symptoms of DeepRest and to travel any distance was no easy task, I’d been experiencing panic attacks, social anxiety and exhaustion amongst other things and Still I Knew I Had to go. I Had to be the one to bring a stone from the Scottish Labyrinth down to start the birth of new spiral. (The stone was collected at a ceremony with three of my dear sisters and it was So obvious which stone it was as it was literally glowing and shining brightly! She Even had a Smile on Her!) I got on the train in Edinburgh and connected with a Beautiful soul who I shared my adventure with. From London I traveled through rush hour on the tube and down escalators that scare me. Another train and Taxi and I arrived in Forrest Row in the dark in the rain. There was a minor hiccup and there was no one at the house I went to, so after an hour listening to the sound journey of the rain, a Beautiful Colombian woman collected me and took me to her home for a sweet night of rest. This is the way. Before we enter the female labyrinth, we might encounter the masculine maze and get lost and confused and scared and unsure with dead ends and having to back up and retrace steps. It’s all part of it. Even collecting the stones for the labyrinth was not easy. We went to multiple sites that we thought may have had stones and I kept scanning the paths and the forests and there wasn’t a single stone, I couldn’t believe it, not one! The rivers were not accessible or not great quality so we couldn’t get them there. Time after time, challenges. And Still we kept going. Our determination paid off and an abundance of stones were collected from several sites. We even had stones that had been brought from the beach on the south coast, that went around the two water bowls- these stones had an abundance of heart shapes and were beautiful. The site itself was Very Magical. It was in the land of a dear new Sister (and yes it is open to the public). The Labyrinth itself is guarded by a cherry blossom tree and a birch tree. The most Adorable Medicine cat, made sure we were doing everything ok and supervised everything and came for cuddles during ceremony. The first night we planted the stone from Scotland. Everyone that held Her remarked how soft She was. Yes, this is the medicine of the soft lands of the borders. This night was Exceptionally special for me as it was my “birthday”. Not the birthday of this ‘body suit’ but my Nahual birthday. This is the calendar of the human, the calendar of 260 days. This day was Waxaquib Toj, Ocho Guacamaya, Number 8 Macaw. This is who I am. This is why I HAD to be there. It was my best ever birthday and the best ever birthday party with 4 candles for the 4 directions. There were blessings and songs and hugs and joy and love and sweetness and my soul flew exceptionally HIGH as it thanked and let go of Everything in the last cycle of 260 days and welcomed the new. The second morning we planted the medicine wheel and under each stone we placed a beautiful crystal. We continued to prepare the site and gather stones and in the evening we placed all the stones in the labyrinth. The medicine of Coyote (the trickster) had been with us all day and eventually he grew tired and we got the work done in the dark. My brother walked the labyrinth and planted the center stone and it was complete. That meant the last day we had time not to rush but to make sure little details were done and made the site beautiful with flowers and candles to welcome in more people for the ceremony later on. The flowers Even included a little heather so I Loved that touch. It was the day of the Monkey which brought Joy and an abundance of amazing monkey hugs. The ceremony took place on the Autumn Equinox. A time of balance, of unity. Of the seasons, of the internal, of the masculine and feminine, of our two lands. Deep healing of Scotland and England and the old stories and wounds. But Also and Importantly, there were two sisters, one from Poland and one from Germany and there was Deep healing with the history of those lands. And Also with my Latin American Brothers and Sisters, there was much healing of their history. Ceremony usually lasts a while and finishes around dawn but it was so very sweet to have a calm, clear night with no wind or rain. I was So grateful. The stars were Abundant and the moon shone. Even the owls kept joining in with their songs. After many hours it was time to take our shoes off and walk this new labyrinth. I was the first to enter Her. I Immediately felt Exceptional LOVE. Profound LOVE. I KNEW Her. As you walk in, it is an opportunity to revise your life and what you are letting go of. I kept hearing that I’d done so very well, I’d Done my work over the last few months, there was Nothing more to let go of at this point, I had worked hard and my prayers had All been heard. The stones sang and their vibration was incredible LOVE, I was moved very Deeply. Returning outwards I received such sweet blessings. I felt MORE Love as I hugged Each person I met walking in. THIS is my Favourite part, THIS is why I walk Labyrinths – for the Hugs! We enter sometimes as strangers and after Proper hugs we emerge as Family. The Core group of 7 who planted this site are very much my family and I love them Completely and Always. I feel liberated, I feel reborn, I feel re-energised, I feel healed. I have given my pagamento (payment), and I have received exceptional Abundance and I am touched, moved and humbled. I might not be able to journey to every ceremony at this new Labyrinth but I will visit when I can and I Know I am always welcome. When I sit at the Scottish Labyrinth I will feel the connection and I will pray for this expanding family. I have a stone from England that I am taking to plant in the Scottish Labyrinth to weave our hearts and our lands deeper. And then in another four years, (God/ Goddess willing) I will be there in Wales to help birth the next Labyrinth and then four years later I will be there in Ireland to lend my support once more. Four Labyrinths, Four Directions, UNITY. Aho Get out the way and trust. Everything is Incredibly Divinely Supremely Utterly perfect.
I keep Thinking I know what the next step is, or I have a flavour or I think I am in any form of control – ha ha ha. Absolutely No way Toots!!!! (My Guides call me “Toots” a LOT just to make me smile!) This is the pathless route - utter uncertainty and twists and turns constantly! Be constantly flexible to the flowing, changing, evolving, shape-shifting nature of life and don’t resist anything – the minute you start resisting what is – tension zooms in! Yes I am here in Service - for Gaia and the Divine Feminine and I have a Massive Desire to DO “Stuff" to help Absolutely Everyone, Everything Everywhere, Ceaselessly ALL the time but Actually that Completely Overwhelms me and drains the Hell out of me as I often feel aspects of the pain body of the World. I want to give and give and give and GIVE and give some more But – Toots how about just actually “Being” for a bit! Right now its about DOING a WHOLE lot Less – less and less and less. Less is SO much MORE. Getting Really Silent and Still and really trusting when it’s right to saying NO to opportunities and people – It’s taken me a Long time to really nail down the idea of Boundaries. So, from that space I can choose what I Really want to say Yes to, such as the couple of things that really do call me this weekend. Laughter is a big part of my dance right now and It made me giggle today when I considered a Few of the things that haven’t happened or been done yet as if that’s something “bad” – Who cares huh!!!! I don’t need to achieved ANYTHING in this life, it is NOT a Competition, take Nothing Personally or Seriously!!!! Who knows 1 or 2 of these or all of them and MORE may emerge in divine timing or maybe none of them will evolve and there will be Completely different adventures. I have No attachment – Everything is OK, there is Never any push – water never pushes – it flows and adapts. I don’t Even need to pick 1 of these things and start there. I need do Nothing right now – there is Such power in Nothing.
WHO CARES – It Really Doesn’t mean a Thing – Absolutely NONE of it. Drop Every Single Thing. It REALLY Is completely OK to Drop ALL the Doing!!!! Just REST. Completely Totally and Utterly. Just STOP with ALL of it and just BE. The Rest will unfurl and take care of itself in it’s Own sweet way! I smiled at a stranger today and they opened and smiled back – THAT'S the Power and Beauty in this life – Simple acts of kindness, sheer Simplicity! ALL my guidance keeps coming back over and over to Utterly Drop the DOING! Yeah I ADORE people, animals, Gaia, the Universe… but at the moment, let me be Still and Quiet and just leave me there for a bit. |
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