Yes THAT Shakiness!
The one you do Anything to cover and mask,
To numb from,
To run from.
The one you seek Any distraction from.
The one you are Expert at hiding from yourself and the world.
The one you pretend isn’t there,
The one that you don’t want to sit with or face.
The one that comes out in your voice as “I’m fine”, when that’s the Last thing that you are.
The one you tell no one about.
The one behind the masks and facades.
The one that shows up all over the body in waves.
That Alive shakiness Doesn’t need to be analysed or understood,
It doesn’t need therapy or medication.
It doesn’t need labels or value assigned.
It doesn’t need comparison with previous shakiness.
It doesn’t need to be assigned to a personal story or if it’s something on a bigger scale, Even a cosmological scale!
No one need hear the external manifestation of the shakiness shared in dialogue.
Allow it to be there as it is.
Exactly as it is.
All the covers and armor removed so only the shakiness shines.
In this space, there may be an intensification as the distractions are all dismissed in turn and the shakiness is left even more exposed.
Perhaps it appears terrifying or too much?
Just give it some space to be,
be present with it.
Allow all the raw, wild vulnerability.
Give up all dreams of any redemption from this moment, No one is coming to save the day.
This moment is ALL there is and in This moment, there is Shakiness.
Give up the fantasy of another future moment when this shakiness is changed or gone. This longing and desire for a fantasy of “When….”
Let it be as it is, without violence of wanting it to be Any different than exactly as it is.
There is Enormous wisdom in the body,
This Alive shakiness is a gift that has showed up in This moment.
Who knows or cares where it came from, why it’s there or any Question that stream through like lightning, who cares.
It’s an invitation to feel the aliveness in This moment,
So allow the invitation.
(And Don’t forget to Breathe!)