To ONLY accept the good aspects and shun or turn the rest of the rainbow is not real or authentic.
ANY resistance to Anything will bring suffering.
I saw that Buddhist Proverb - “Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional”. Yes I tend to agree and understand.
I experience pain, I experience a Whole Bunch of pain not through any particular labelled physical condition other than being in this human body suit this time around and experiencing all that has to offer.
I experience pain in different ways and from different sources. As an empath I notice how I have frequently experienced other people’s pain but it can be wider than even that and can include the Intensity of the pain body of the collective Feminine or even the pain body of the Earth Herself and yes that can be exceptionally overwhelming if I don’t bring conscious presence and awareness and keep surrendering continuously.
Last year I had a reading from Channelling Love. (http://channellinglove.com) This is a tiny segment from that reading which made such sense to me. It is Still with me and healing and teaching me and unfurling:
"Look up to the stars at night and know that your home reaches out to you from a star that is yet unknown to your earthly family. A star that is of light... a star that is of the highest vibration... and a star that is of a Love that is yet unknown to many on your planet at this time. This is the Love that you feel moving through you. This is the Love that causes healing that is seen as pain and trauma by unknowing minds... but is of the highest source of life. You have the courage to face this. You have this flowing through you. You have the insight and courage to face this death of illusion, so that you may bring yourself home to you."
Today the physical pain in my body was WILDLY Intense and so Shockingly profound I Just wanted to turn from it Completely.
I was sitting in a meeting and it was like being underneath the water in a swimming pool and all the voices became distorted as they discussed the joys of finance as a wave of pain swallowed me whole.
I Didn’t accept it, I wanted to be immediately pain free, I wanted to reach instantly for Any kind of Strong pain killers, I wanted it to look and be and feel different to what was happening in that Alive, very alive moment. I felt angry and resentful at this pain, and watched a level of self violence and an abandonment of this unwanted sensation that was present in my body and was asking to be allowed and held in that moment.
I am not this pain, it is not my identity, there has been the presence of pain but it is not me, it is not mine. There is no separation, there is not a better than and worse than place, there is just what is present in this moment. Everything is a flavour of the Divine, Everything is an expression of Love.
I do not have attachment to the pain right now, pain may come, pain may go I don’t have to be frightened of it or dismiss it or run from it. I certainly don't have to let my creative mind get in the way and start dreaming up all sorts of diagnosis about what labels I could attach to it.
It is an opportunity to get intimate with any dis-ease, to allow it space and hold it without any expectations. I don’t need to transform it or transmute it or even heal it. I just have to allow it to be exactly as it is.
I drop Even the label of pain itself and gently notice the flavours and textures and dances that are expressing in their own miraculous way. The experience asked for presence and witnessing and tonight I am stopping and allowing and resting and noticing and being with all that is.
Right now there is an experience of Freedom in allowing it to look and be exactly as it is with no preference. Right now All is Well.
(And it is Important to say, before I end that I Agree with conventional medicine where it is required. I don’t Just go off in my many beautiful “Healing Temples” with Star Beings and Nature Spirits and Merlin Vortex Healing and much much more very amazing stuff! I actually phoned for an appointment to get checked out but I am waiting a further 5 days before there's availability - this is the UK National Health Service after all! If this experience of discomfort is still wild and intense in the morning I will not just put up with it and soldier on but will ask for a more immediate appointment.)
Picture of the Andes in Colombia – now That's healing for me, THAT makes me Smile - I can hear the earth humming and the birds singing! Aho! <3