“Sometimes I think, why don’t I just die.”
How many jaws just dropped, in shock, in disgust, in horror or grief or maybe recognition?
“I have no partner, no kids, no pets, no job, no x,y, z.... no reason to get up in the morning, so why bother? I’m rubbish at this that and the next thing etc etc etc……. I must be being punished for Something… I’m a Bad person…. Why be here at all? Why not just die!!!!!!!!! (Basically because I don’t have the Balls to do it, I’m too chicken!)”
Good! I'm SO Crazy glad you (And me) are too chicken! Keep being a chicken!
Please BE a Magic chicken with fingers and thumbs so you can Phone the Samaritans! they can be reached 24 hours a day at 116 123.
ALL of the stuff that moves through is just thoughts. Thoughts are not the enemy. You don't need to listen to them or believe them or attach to them or follow them.
However it looks like, or feels, whatever is going on, You matter, I matter, we matter, we all matter.
When you think no one cares, I care.
You are not excluded from love because of ANYTHING you have done or said or thought.
You do not have to Prove yourself to ANYONE in this life, to be worthy of Anything.
You don’t have to DO Anything!
Rest in THIS moment.
The scripts, thoughts, memories, beliefs, stories…. Are ALL related to the past or the future. Stay HERE with me NOW. Right NOW. Feet on the ground, Right now, right now, right now. Keep Gently, gently, gently, coming back to now.
Thoughts may come and go, but just watch them, pretend you are sitting watching the sky and maybe a little cloud comes and then it goes, maybe a dark cloud comes, but it also goes, maybe there’s weather in all forms, but it goes.
You remain as the SKY.