You’ve got it all wrong.
You didn’t come here to master unconditional love.
That is where you came from and where you’ll return.
You came here to learn personal love.
Universal love.
Messy love.
Sweaty love.
Crazy love.
Broken love.
Whole love.
Infused with divinity.
Lived through the grace of stumbling.
Demonstrated through the beauty of… messing up. Often.
You didn’t come here to be perfect. You already are.
You came here to be gorgeously human. Flawed and fabulous.
And the to rise again into remembering.
But unconditional love? Stop telling that story.
Love, in truth, doesn’t need ANY other adjectives.
It doesn’t require modifiers.
It doesn’t require the condition of perfection.
It only asks that you show up.
And do your best.
That you stay present and feel fully.
That you shine and fly and laugh and cry and hurt and heal and fall and get back up and play and work and live and die as YOU.
It’s enough.
It’s Plenty.
Courtney A Walsh
I’ve tasted love in Countless ways. I have known So many sides, songs and colours of this vibration and it Still remains the Biggest, Greatest Mystery. At times it hasn’t been pretty or polished or perfect at all, it’s been Incredibly messy and unsure and so confusing and stumbling. I have cried Oceans and Planets and Galaxies of tears over this vibration. I have been Completely heartbroken Billions of times over and over and over as the subject or object of my affection has not responded the way I hoped or expected, I have been devastated and shattered. It all taught and still teaches me so very much and I wouldn’t change a Single thing.
I no longer care how my love is received. I have been let down and disappointed by so many people so very often that I rarely have expectations these days and if I spot old expectations popping up I chose to notice them and allow them to release. So there are no hooks in to anyone and this is incredibly freeing. I don’t blame or punish anyone if I don’t get met – there are perhaps a Billion reasons why someone or something can’t meet me where I might like and it’s all ok. I just Love Anyway.
My heart is Outrageously Massive and when I expected other people to even show up a tiny miniscule little bit to meet me and I often forgot their own wounding and pain and suffering and their Massive armour that wouldn’t let them let me in. I have even met people who appear so very incredibly cold and closed that I can find absolutely No miniscule crack at all to pour in my love, to that massive chasm inside that is utterly aching for this gift, I Love them Anyway.
I ‘usually’ feel So full of love that I don’t ‘need’ or search for Anything back at all. I say “usually” because Yes I am Utterly human and I sometimes forget if I am tired and run down and exhausted and it feels so good to fall into a pair of arms that just hold me in all my glorious imperfection. I count my blessings for this. It is Incredible to start Every day with someone who looks at me in my wild woman morning bonkers craziness and makes sure I start the day hearing I am loved and at the end of the day makes sure it’s the last thing I hear at night. What a treasure and blessing!!!
And still I AM LOVE. Nothing stops me loving any more, I Can’t help it, THIS is why I am here!!!! I Love in Every flavour from incredibly gently and softly and tenderly to Wildly and Intensely. I see the Magic Divine Spark in EVERY soul and That’s what I love, I bypass Any behaviour that I encounter and go for the Core deep deep down. I Love Everyone, Even those who feel Unlovable or forgotten or invisible or who I’ve Never even met, I feel each one. Even those who appear to do such horrific/ shocking actions, I see the beautiful spark hidden deep deep deep and I focus on That not the rest that tries to distract. Whether or not I get Anything back in return, Ever, is Absolutely None of my business, it doesn’t change anything.
My life is a journey of Remembering the Return to Love.
In Any journey, Sometimes I slip off the path and the monsters and daemons lurk to confuse me, scare me and distract me. More often than not, I remember who I am and come back, come home, come within and Return To Love.
P.S. I LOVE You.