Then on Saturday I was called by the land and the Labyrinth to make my sacred journey once more back to the womb.
In 2013 a labyrinth was birthed in Scotland and I had the privilege of attending the first ceremony at the Summer Solstice. Saturday was the 4th occasion for me to return to the womb in this way and each has been very different and I watch and honour my journey and progression. I feel Such a different person in that year, Such a Massive change!
The first time I didn’t really know what to expect, I was a little quiet and unsure. It was cold and wet and windy and it was nearly impossible to light our candles, it taught us a Lot about Patience! The whole fire experience was more than I could have thought and I watched all my resistance and nerves and barriers and armour. I couldn’t bring myself to begin to offer a song when invited. When I reached the middle of the labyrinth and started to come back to the outside I hugged Everyone on the way out. With Each person I felt my ego drop and by the last person, I had an experience of no separation at all. This freaked me out a little as although at that point I had experienced Oneness in solo meditation practice, I had not experienced it with another person so I was utterly surprised and moved! I eventually got home about 4am and sat in the garden until about 5 listening to the blackbirds sing.
The next turn was the Autumn Equinox. My favourite part was when the clouds magically parted and I have Never in my life witnessed such a Huge Incredible Corona around the beautiful moon, it was breath-taking. I was So exhausted after traveling home after the last experience that I thought I’d get a local hotel this time so I managed a couple of hours sleep before I had to head home.
Then Summer Solstice 2014. This time I spoke to my friend and agreed that we were ready to stay in the forest all night so we were all prepared. It so happens that the ceremony finished about 7.30 am anyway. Previously, we had worked with 4 Nahuals and this time we honoured all 20 Nahuals. We began walking the Labyrinth with the heart bursting dawn chorus and the light starting to come up. I planted a tiny crystal seed with my intentions right at the very center.
So that brings us to Autumn Equinox 2014.
I was very physically tired after the effect of the Referendum disappointment and I was a little disorganised so I only just made the bus by literally a minute! This time our group was small and intimate and perfect. The weather was so wonderfully kind to us, the wind was soft and the night was mild.
The Nahual of the day was Tijax (Swordfish and Obsidian Knife) a Very powerful Nahual, not to be messed with and there were a Lot of teachings offered. Each time I sit round the fire I sense the elementals all round the space all watching and joining in. With the fire I usually see the fire dragons dancing but I mostly watch the Phoenix energy and receive it’s teachings about the next stage of rebirth. I also experienced bear, wolf and lion energy in the logs of the fire.
As my sister passed the sacred Tabaco and invited me to offer a prayer for the feminine waters I felt a deep connection with all female energies and my feminine lineage which I honour. I deeply honour the feminine vibration that is unfolding and blossoming within me as my Truth and notice how I had tried to hide this for so long. The missing school girls in Africa came to the forefront of my mind, they may have long been out of the news headlines but I have never forgotten them. I continue to pray for their safe, swift return and ask that somehow they know they are never forgotten and they are always deeply loved by me. I also felt the pain of all my sisters who suffer persecution of any kind, any abuse, trafficking, sexual exploitation, female child soldiers, forced marriage, genital mutilation.. I particularly extended my arms to all these brave sweet sisters and pray for them, I wish them peace and safety and love, I wish I could take away their pain and suffering. May the Divine Feminine enlighten all our hearts, may all females reclaim their sweet inner power and strength, may everyone honour the sacred feminine (including the feminine aspect that the masculine form also carries). May we also honour the beautiful masculine waters and energies, including the masculine aspect within the feminine form.
I Loved it as we talked about my Nahual Toj and some beautiful magic was added to the fire to bring the colours, I’ve Never experienced a colourful fire like that, I couldn’t squeal with delight externally as I was so full of delight inside and was utterly mesmerised by the abundance of beauty!!!! I feel So honoured that I have been introduced to my Nahual and the teachings have been very profound.
As I entered the Labyrinth it was so very dark. The darkest yet. Pitch black paths and I could barely see the rocks and foliage lining the route. There was no moon to illuminate the way and the paths were like the endless black void. Immediately I questioned, am I on the right path, am I going the right way, have I stepped over a line and messed up…. each question emerged as an expression of the experience but as with Everything, it was all Very metaphorical and that was the teaching. Each step was a step of complete trust, stepping into the unknown. I couldn’t see a thing on the path, how did I know if there was a rock or stick or a slug or monster or a gift or anything waiting on me. It felt like there was absolutely No ground at All and as I stepped I would fall Forever and ever. Each step felt like the edge of a precipice, it was easy to fall into fear and not keep moving forward but I felt so very supported, particularly by the Family of brothers and Sisters walking with me. I was the second one in so I felt a degree of pressure to move forward so I didn't cause a build up behind me. For a second that unknowing of my way and what was ahead was Very unsettling and then it was Utterly comforting as I opened and surrendered completely into it. I walked Very Slowly. I stopped occasionally and felt around with my bare toes for the stones that outlined the route. I thanked the Grandmothers in each and every stone for their teachings. I felt completely safe and Very Very held by the divine feminine aspect. I felt so very home in the familiar curves and spirals. I also stopped occasionally to marvel and wonder at the stars in the dark expanding sky. I have Never Ever seen the stars so numerous like that in my whole life. It was the first time I had ever seen the Milky Way, it blew my mind. I saw the space station and some satellites and I saw a shooting star! It touched me deeply.
I bow to such special family for meeting me in the Labyrinth so fully, with such incredible alive presence. My Favourite part is embracing Everyone as I emerge and am reborn through the womb. It’s So beautiful that sometimes there have been people who were 'strangers' and as we meet in the medicine and embrace, we become Family. I was Touched and Moved and Utterly, Completely Ripped apart as I felt so many of the family Completely surrender and Completely Melt in my arms. To deeply connect beyond time and space and Truly hold another soul and then to watch and feel the barriers, and separation between you disappear Completely brings Such sweet tears. Sometimes there are words to share, mostly this time the Extreme Beautiful Love vibration was Enough and no words could touch that vibration! I can't begin to express the level of Love I felt for Every person on that path!!! Phew!!!!!! <3
I bow to Pachamama/ Mother Earth and Father Sky, all my lineage, All my family walking this path, all the great spirits and ancestors, the 4 corners, all the elementals, Angels, Assended Masters, Star Beings and other Light beings that rocked up plus all the plants and animals who all witnessed the unfolding. I bow to All 20 Nhauals, What profound medicines. I bow to the plant medicines for your deep teachings. I bow to the sacred fire. I bow to the circle and the sharings. I bow to the drum for your medicine and showing me how to care for you and get the best out of you. I bow to the power of music and singing and supporting me to find the courage to actually Share my voice.
Then in the early morning as we concluded our time together the heavy dew lit up the cobwebs like the most beautiful sparkling jewels on the grasses – I’ve never seen so many cobwebs in 1 area before- so very stunning. We could see down the hill into the valley and the morning mists made the soft rolling hills that peaked out feel like we had arrived in Avalon and were on some Arthurian Quest.
I am deeply honoured to have had this experience once more and it touches my heart so very very deeply. <3