It’s like this Glorious lightbulb shining with all the light of the heavens but covered in layer upon layer upon layer of cloths and rags and grime and muck so it was Always shining but it’s incredible light was so very heavily obscured. With all my practice, and persistence and tenacity, and patience, each cloth is being removed and the grime is carefully removed. This is done attentively and lovingly with presence. Each vibration that emerges to be examined is acknowledged, thanked for it’s part, and put on the fire to be transmuted in love. Yes I am incredibly aware that I am not down to the naked flame but I feel Her mighty power and Divine magnificence and it is so shocking that I catch my breath in awe.
I have done So very much work and although this is an ongoing journey forever, this segment I am resting in right now is to mark, honour and celebrate. It feels like a milestone reached after a very long and at times arduous painful and very difficult journey, sometimes I have wanted to give up and run away and sometimes I thought I’d drown in tears.
There are Many mountains but I have scaled this Particular one at this Particular time and the view from the top is breath taking and incredibly humbling to even glimpse, even briefly. The view is like endless, alive, black, warm, soft, velvet. It is me and I am it. It is utterly home and I am so deeply held by the Mystery as we merge.
To mark this milestone I am traveling to visit the Goddess Temples in Malta tomorrow. The Minute I heard the word Hypogeum during the summertime my ears pricked up and my skin tingled. I immediately resonated with the word and Knew this place, somehow, I felt the vibration of the word enter me and I Knew I’d go there at some point (I didn’t quite expect it would be just a few short months later!). I have felt this place call to me since then, inviting me and supporting the journey preparing me to descend down into the physical earth in this magnificent ancient temple. Everything has been leading me here.
Every time I feel Really completely overexcited and Full of anticipation, I notice it and release it and come back to the present. I have been exploring expectation. Over the years, I have utterly left the present to chase after moments. I have pinned my hopes and expectations on ideas and concepts and was then somewhat surprised when it didn’t play out like that after all. The illusion of creating a ‘future’ moment very often doesn’t match what life offers if I just stay open to allow and accept whatever happens in the present moment where the magic unfolds. All we have is NOW, the rest will take sweet care of itself. Who Knows or Cares what it will be like, it will be whatever it is meant to be.