Do you expect me to curl up into a whimpering sniveling ball? Do you expect me to crumble and fall? Do you expect me to drop deep into the "poor me" victim mentality. Aint my style!!!
I am Not defined by my job. I have Always LAUGHED when people ask - "So What do you do?" HOW can I answer that?! What I am employed to do does NOT say Anything about me - it doesn't matter if I clean toilets or am a CEO of some fancy company - So what?! That's NOT who I AM......
I came back from the Azores where I saw Blue Whales, had my interview yesterday for my own job as they are looking to shed posts and today I am out of a job - ha ha ha!!!!!!
There is NO injury to who I Truly am, there is NO injury to my Expansive quality of Love, there is no injury to my Constant experience at the moment of Profound PEACE and FREEDOM.
It is EASY to go into All the story and all what has unfolded. It is easy to drop deep into the seemingly massive Injustice of how it feels. but THIS was what I manifested - I Did this!!!! Everything in my Entire life is what I manifest - Everything!!!! So it is All my choice, it is All for my highest good, it is All for my souls growth.
I have been in MANY jobs, I have had Shitty times in pretty much All of them - So what!!! I have been bullied and victimized over and over and over - So what!!!! You will NOT, Can NOT destroy me, I am Boundless, Limitless Radiance. Do what you want, say what you want, treat me how you want -
STILL I RISE.
I Get it that MANY have seen me as a little bit "different' and have been deeply threatened by me. I get that Many Don't know how to cope with me, what to say, how to "deal" with me. I get that their reaction has frequently been negative and they have reacted in old Patriarchal ways that are So outdated. I get that Not everyone is always going to love you, accept you or even like you, I have been addicted to wanting to Please everyone, wanting approval, wanting affection. When this isn't there or is removed in all its forms I have been a little shaken, a little wobbled and confused - Surely EVERYTHING in life is just an opportunity to Love one another?! I keep giving out Love Big style and very Often I have been Rejected by people or circumstances. All of it is OK, None of it matters. I Stay in my high vibration through Choice, I am the Most Glorious Goddess in a Human Body and I Continue to Rock it no matter what life presents!!!!!!!
I Allow Everything to flow, I don't block a single thing. I allow the feelings in my body, I allow all the shadow to move through without forcing it away. I pay deep attention to the sensations, dropping the stories. Where is the pain, where is anywhere that actually feels painfree, what is the texture of this sensation, does it have movement, does it shift or move, does it have temperature - cool or burning hot, does it have colour, does it have sound. Paying attention to the sensations is So much more of a healing teacher than the lies and confusion and traps that the mind can offer. How does my body want to move with today's experiences, how does my dance want to express?
I waled in nature along the canal that I live beside. I Gave myself to mother nature and She took me and Healed me. The Quality of LOVE was Delicious and so very moving. The Quality of PEACE and Stillness was Profound.
I drop deep into Everything that moves through me with Gentle, non judging, Innocence and just watch what is there.
I am So surprised to witness the Softness in there. I am excited to taste the Freedom that this spaceousness unfolds into. This moment is Exquisite, there IS pain and I can be Completely OK with that. There is movement and I can be OK with that. there is SUCH Love, there is Cheering of Legions of Star Beings, Whooping in delight at this celebration of NOW.
My creativity is Purring!!!!! the possibilities are Endless!!!! (Some of the probabilities are perhaps not so Massive as I am Crazy creative and Some things perhaps aint realistic!!!)
I create and Design my life, I manifest Greatness, I manifest Such Beautiful experiences.
I BOW So very deeply to my meditation teachers and the lineage. I have been meditating ALL day eyes closed and also eyes open practice. This stuff has saved my life - well my sanity. NOTHING matters, Nothing is personal, Nothing is serious. I am Abundantly supported and LOVED by this Cosmos.
No matter What shakes down I STILL LOVE. I Love Every soul who has Ever tried to harm, hurt or persecute me in any way.
What I Do hope is that I am a leader in loosing my job today and our Prime Minister follows suit in today's general election and we can have More Compassion and kindness in our leaders with a Government that care about the Whole of society rather than pockets and parcels of people that suit their particular agendas. We are ALL part of this country - All of us have out own unique ways of showing up and doing whatever we do. I visualise the hearts of all our leaders (across the Globe) awakening and blossoming and opening and decisions made from high vibration for the good of the people and the environment we live in in this Beautiful World.