It would be super Easy to be Stuck in the mud, in the past, in the stories, but that's just Boring, I'm Bored of all That! The lotus Rises from the mud toward the sunshine, it doesn't stay in the mud, the mud is not where the beauty is destined, that's not it's true nature.
I Honour All (and I Mean ALL) that have gifted me Such growth, such initiations, lessons, teachings, discoveries.... Without them, I Wouldn't be the woman that I am now. Sure there is sometimes desire to share the stories and what happened but that doesn't truly serve me right now, what serves me is gently resting Here - alive, present, open, relaxed, attentive, awake.
I feel Such Compassion and Love and Forgiveness for the abundance of seeming unkindness. All of it has been to steer and point me in a new direction towards my valued life path, even when it's seemed like backing up from blind alleys or retracing steps or starting from scratch again. Everything has been a choice, every choice has been Just right in That moment, there isn't a sense of right or wrong, there just IS.
I continue to be in Awe at how I've navigated the gnarly shadowy places and faced Everything that's wanted to present. Sometimes it's been Too much, sometimes there has been resistance, sometimes there has been Deep allowing.
Right NOW, there is Peace.
Right NOW, there is a sense of relaxation and emptiness and my nervous system is Finally quiet and not on red alert.
The clean white blank page feels Fresh and new and ready for the next chapter, Whatever adventures that may bring.