Right now I am Grateful for this body. All that it is, all that it does for me, all that it offers me, all that it shows me. What an Absolute Miracle it is……
It Fries my brain the minute I begin engaging in the thinking process of how Exquisite it is that there is this lightning speed connection between the words imagined somewhere within and transmitted through my eyes and the mechanics of my arms and fingers to type the words. How does So very much go on within unconsciously without me engaging in, my heart beats, my lungs expand and contract, my digestive tract processes the nutrition and the magic enzymes break it all down and feed this body. At the same time there is Constant death of Millions upon Millions of cells and the Birth of Brand new cells. It’s all Crazy trippy!!!! Don’t get me started on the Absolute Miracle of how a baby is created and grows and is born – Incredible and Stunning.
I am crazy about touch and my body squeals for massage so very often. I often think I might actually be a cat as I would Happily snooze somewhere warm and eat and be stroked - puuuuuuuuuur! (the image below is my Amazing cat, Jamie. She lived to 21 years old!)
I am also curious if my body kinda sometimes gets tight on purpose sometimes to remind me to book up for a session so I can experience the contrast between the tension and the space that opens as I dissolve into the healing process.
I have been going for regular massage sessions for Years and my therapist knows me really well, even if I go in and think I maybe only had a slight tightness in 1 part, she finds all the hidden parts where the real tension lurks and really helps my healing process. Today was a bit like that. I didn’t feel too bad when I walked in and actually I straight away spotted that I wasn’t all that connected with my body and what was happening in there today and then on the couch, oh goodness me!
Much of my back had layers or flavours or colours of tension and discomfort. There were new areas that lit up that I hadn’t noticed before. I was Completely present with the entire experience and watched each moment as it unfolded and really got in amongst it all at a deep level. The technique is Myofacial release and I could see where the connective tissue was bunched tight and where it elongated. I used to notice the word “safety” for when I felt constricted but actually this wasn’t so much of an issue today. So I was curious why I had armour on certain parts but I didn’t force my body to drop it and take it off. I noticed what wanted to utterly melt and release and what wanted to remain constricted as it was holding on, which parts called for that armour. There were parts where the therapist was gently pulling and extending my arm and shoulder socket and it felt like my fingertips were in London as my arm just kept opening! I was at Complete peace with Everything and didn’t Try and Force my body to be soft if that’s not what it wanted to be and in that allowing it opened and blossomed. I offered my body Complete Compassion and acceptance for the miracle It is. I experienced Such sweet Freedom in just witnessing and not expecting Anything, just let Everything Be as it is and revel in the beauty of Every molecule Exactly as it is….
I am grateful. To my body, to my therapist, for the luxury of time in my schedule, for the money in my account to pay for this.