Space to be. Space to rest. Space to grieve. Space to heal. Space to recover. Space to allow my body to unwind and uncurl in the time it needed. Space to allow the pain to reach peak intensity before it was ready to even begin to soften. Space to allow tension and toxicity to begin to soften and release. Space to allow the tissues to give up their gripping paralyzing tightness. Space for the panic to unpack and the body/mind/emotions and spirit to begin to come back into balance. Space to begin to breathe again. Space to expand into. Space to explore. Space to grow. Space to discover myself and rediscover myself. Space to make sense of my place in the world. Space to Fall deeply in love with the totality of my being after completely forgetting my worth for so long.
Space opening up has allowed me to be more authentic and to discover more of who I am and who I am not. It has helped me see what I love and call in more of. It has helped me gain clarity about what I am no longer prepared to tolerate, where my no’s are and my firm boundaries.
For me, the greatest healers for anything are time and space and I notice that in our modern fast paced frenetic world, we rarely slow down to allow any healing to unfold at a deep core level and merely cover superficial wounds with a sticking plaster to get by and make do.
There is great power and magic in the gift of doing nothing and letting Everything fall. There is magic in not cramming the minutes of the day with activity and getting more and more curious about what else is there in what is left.
I have used time and space to sit with everything that has shown up and to let it move through, without numbing out. I haven’t had distraction of work or relationship and its been a deep diving within my body and into the experience of stillness which holds everything.
Nothing needed analysed or healed or fixed, no childhood memories need to be relived or any of that, my experience has been closer than that, more intimate, much more present and simple and experiential and innocent. It has not been a smooth journey but it has been deeply rich and potent.
I have felt the energy of the word “Sarosa” so deeply and strongly. This powerful Scottish Gaelic word that has infused my bones and beyond, which means Freedom. In the opening space, there is such sweet and abundant Freedom.
In the context of creativity, for example, it has been freedom to let rules fall, let labels fall, let expectations fall, let thoughts and ideas of how things should be or look fall. There has been freedom to express whatever is going on in the moment for me without judgment or concern for approval or praise. There is no attachment to what is emerging, no defined styles, no hard and fast descriptions, just an unfolding of my flavor upon the world.
What has emerged has been a beautiful cathartic release of creativity, not just in visual art through various media but also through movement, writing and sounding as my body relearns how to live without abuse and how I can take up my space in this new world that I am creating.
And so the next step was presented easily and effortlessly and with sweet grace. Not one but 2 Exhibitions in Edinburgh!
I will be displaying some of my creativity in public at an Amazing space – Saltire Motorcycles. This is no ordinary place, it has been created and fashioned with passion. It was such an Easy decision to say YES when offered the chance to use the space.
The exhibition will be from Friday 12th May 2017 for 8 weeks at Saltire Motorcycles, Gorgie Road, Edinburgh. I’d Love to see you there on the opening night.
The second one will be from Friday 27th May 2017 for 4 weeks. This will be at the Incredible Planetary Healing Center in Portebello, Edinburgh. 2 different locations with different energy and I will have different pieces available for sale.
I am Profoundly Grateful. For Everything on this path, for everything in this healing journey, for everything that is even still unresolved, for the sweetness of space and the medicine of creativity, for the invitation to share.
I hope to see you on the 12th of May or the 27th May!